need your temp taken?

oh i wish for god sake i could just have the yes from state board of nursing. there's no reason to think i won't get it back but waiting drives me nuts. maybe they'll tell me no stupid you haven't been a nurse for 8 years you need to start over.

i've been spending time on nursing forums lately 'remembering' why i left to begin with. LOTS of problems. none to do with the patients. wiping butt isnt fun but it's not what bothered me. i'm hearing of more nursing cuts, forcing nurses who already worked under unsafe conditions to do more. i wonder why ANA or some other org doesnt step in and advocate for the safety of the patients more and REQUIRE that hospitals staff more nurses. they need to figure out a different way to cut costs other than a workforce. and it seems like hospitals aren't suffering from the economy..there's just as many sick people. so why the cuts?

i have initial reports from the acct that yes akai remains to be profitable. but we are still going to sit down after the rush of tax season and discuss whether or not, for financial means, it is more cost effective for me to put in a straight 8 to 12 hours as a nurse, no fuss, taxes taken out, or persist on with the ongoing colorful chaos of business. had you asked me yesterday i would have again opted to go to nursing. it might have been because i was exhausted, ran ass all day dyeing, photographing, listing, packaging. again for the TIME involved in running it, and the expenses that may be brushed under the rug and ignored..i crave simplicity.

nothing is better than unwrapping a dye project and finding something you are proud of. nurturing the creative side is deeply satisfying. but when it's a rush and a 50 to 60 hour job, it's draining.

tho my acct surely has a list, i started my own list of the expenses of business, all the little things like website cost, business insurance, newsletter expense, paypal fees, extra shipping that i almost always cover, the rising cost of silk and supplies. i like the 'independence' but there's not much freedom in it when you HAVE TO work or fall so far behind that you want to dig your own grave.

should i suffer two or three days a week and get steady pay? or scramble every day of the week?

yet another morning i look longingly at a stack of cds i'd love to listen to and dance around but know that business should come first