years ago when i first started out in nursing, i had already decided i would work in OB or L and D..no question about it. cardio, neuro, peds, icu..nothing else excited me. i have a tolerance for surgery, pacu, plastics, derm, and psych but really felt my aptitude and real interest was in women's health. each time i had a baby (uh..twice now) , going thru the process affirmed that's where i want to be. watching multiple births affirmed it.
i worked briefly as a CNA in OB ..was my first real 'nurse assistant' job at Flagstaff Medical Center. but with a new baby and less than helpful mate, when they put me on night shifts i couldn't do it. Morgan's dad was on a path to make sure i would not succeed so that i would need him. i eventually transferred over to SNF and was miserable. didn't have to suffer too long, was accepted into the nursing program in phoenix..i did work agency as a cna then lpn..i sorta got 'stuck' in snf's and ltc's. assisted living wasn't too bad. but i always felt getting the transfer during my first job was pivotal and set the tone for many years. after earning my rn license i stuck with what i knew, happy to get a job that was non-hospital with hospice. but still worked agency. agency is wonderfully flexible and pays well. but why be paid well for work that sucks the life out of you.
ever since returning to the bay area i have felt a rush of excitement about doing something with school and career again. for the past two years i have felt pretty restless with akai. i enjoy the challenge of running a business but feel i've reached a plateau and can't produce, on my own, any more. goal met. what's next. i've battled the feelings of returning to a nurse job because i couldnt bear the thought of getting stuck again. but in a crappy economy oversaturated with new grads fighting for scraps, i was undecided what to do.
there are a lot of factors pointing towards going back to school. the money i would normally spend on stocking akai for fall season can easily pay for a full year of college. on the accelerate track i could finish my four year degree in nursing in one long hard year. once i had that degree, i could apply to grad programs. there's three i am considering..well three areas of interest. by the time i apply i should be able to narrow it down ..my heart and my head are battling it over. nurse midwife..physician assistant (always loved the medical model..even..i admit..more than the nursing model)..and nurse anesthetist.
it's a relief to not wake up and work on things like a website..it's exciting to be able to research schools and do something that will allow for upward mobility. i dont want the stubbornness of excelling at a business that i created to prevent me from moving towards another line of work that is a lot more stable. so for now i'll cross the bridge that leads to more opportunities
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