by late last night i had finally quieted my head and convinced self that it's ok to not always be doing something. post surg makes you slow down. its sooooo hard. but at least as of last night, right before bed, i was content to watch over the baby and sit on my ass and watch tv. not job search, not simultaneously fix the website, not plan the next two weeks out.
how many days have we been back from oahu now? have seen the sun again for about 20 minutes. I'm going to walmart today to pick up a halogen light bulb. we're only here a few more weeks but i might lose it without some warmth and light. i know i have that seasonal disorder the one where people want to run off and hang themselves from lack of sun.
am feeling pretty motivational-less. no desire to paint, dye, read, write. put me out of my self induced misery. just kidding. clock is ticking and the boredom is over soon. i've already checked into a 24hr fitness center that is a short bus ride from the condo. they watch the kid while i exercise. i might be there all day. Zack loves the bus. this is a win win. i loved going to the gym back in the day..to be able to go and take my time would be bliss. they dont watch kids in the evenings so i wont be able to take yoga or pilates or pole dancing classes but we can hit the gym in the morning and meet daddy at the beach before noon, then he goes to work.
the gym is my mantra. fitness and waikiki atmosphere saved me before.
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