should i stay or should i go

guess what..it's raining!!! i just love the soft patter of rain on the roof and the scent of a freshly watered jungle.

but. chances are if i dont hear back from two wholesalers who are holding up the production line by ..um.. tomorrow, i am packing my bags and taking the kid with me to oahu. we might even arrange to ship a car over (with tv). all i need in oahu is cable, internet, a car and the kid. surfboard will fit in car. we are talking about taking a load over this weekend. i can bring the basics and at least sit outside in the sun again. take the kid to the beach and help him feed the fish. he's going crazy too in his own baby way. day in and day out in the house with mom. there's nowhere to go in the rain. can't take him outside.

now that he is older he will really enjoy places like the waikiki zoo and aquarium, or long walks out to watch the surfers. we have a handful of surf friends who hang at the wall and i know debbie or julie will entertain zack for half an hour while i dash out in the water and reclaim my kingdom.

as for work, fuck it. i know we are in hot spot of bellydance season but i really need to paddle out on the board away from computers. and watch beautiful dark men dance on water (surf). open outdoor restaurants, lavish hotels (you can walk thru they dont care) luau on the beach each evening, soft gentle south shore waves.

my husband knows i'm going to ditch him. it's his fault, he gave sixty day notice and he's stuck here til apr 30. i'll miss him but i'll be fine alone with the baby. its just for a few weeks. i can also start looking for jobs on oahu. steady income..what a concept! going to cache and stocking up on lovely clothing to wear to work. dinner parties, bbqs,

i know ya'll are sick of rain blogs, beleive me so am i. it's good to vent tho, it works the cobwebs out early in the morning and then i usually have a boring but ok day then bitch again by evening :)